Sunday, July 13, 2008

I changed my mind

Remember in that last post when I said you should pray for Llama Papa and not worry about me, I’ll be happy just to be in my lovely hotel room not changing diapers or making beds or cooking meals?

Well, I changed my mind.

Pray for me, friends. This writing stuff is intense, and I am in way over my head. Seriously. The other people in my workshop are college professors and People Who have Published Several Novels. And then there’s me: a stay-at-home Mom from Chicagoland who can change a diaper really fast and publishes stories in magazines that nobody reads.

I think I need a candy bar. Or a drink. Not necessarily in that order.

12 comments:

Kelsey said...

Aww youll be fine hun! You blow them away!

elaine@bloginmyeye said...

They've just had much more practice at pretending to know what they're doing in front of their peers. You'll be fine.

NaNcY said...

i still think that a workshop should consist of work AND shopping!

i think they are driving you all way to hard and that you should all stage a sit-in. maybe you should skip the workshop and just enjoy staying at the hotel. is there a pool at this hotel? you could write a story about skipping the workshop. what did they use to call that...oh yeah, playing hooky, that would be great to write about..."the week i played hooky?".

you could sit in the hotel room and write what ever you want!

i am into alternative learning styles.

spaghettipie said...

If God placed the desire in you to write, then you are to write my friend. Not everyone has that desire. No need for comparisons here. Just do your thing. :)

Marmot Mom said...

The only difference between you and the Published People is that they got published before you did. And college professors are highly overrated--(I should know.)

You are there because you were led there by the God who made Heaven and Earth.
Stick to the candy bars. You are in my prayers. oxox

A Musing Mom said...

LM- Amen to all the previous comments! And I wonder how many of these Professors and People Who have Published Several Novels are looking at you and thinking, "Gee, I wish I'd come to this earlier in my career. Like when I was a stay-at-home mom." Seriously. You go get 'em!

Llama Momma said...

Thank you, Kelsey. I don't know if I'll blow anyone away this week...but I'm hoping to learn a few things.

Elaine -- you're probably right.

Nancy -- skipping stuff is always an option, but also missing out on an amazing opportunity to learn and grow. I don't want to be held back by fear and insecurity. Oh, and I HATE shopping. Hate it.

SP -- exactly what I needed to read this morning. Thank you.

Marmot Mom -- I'm sticking with the candy bars. And feeling more optimistic this morning. Thank you for your prayers.

AMM -- quite possible!

I can do this. Right? I'm gathering my courage as we speak...and my caffeine.

Thank you, all, for your encouragement.

NaNcY said...

oh good! i am glad you are gonna give it a shot!

i hate shopping at malls, but, there is a really great consignment place about 20 miles from me, a huge place full of used clothes. great place to get jeans and kid clothes and a dress to wear to something that i have t dress up for. i like shopping there because the same ladies have worked there for ages, they know my kid's names and mine and when they were small they could play in the little play area with kid videos playing that is in with the kid's clothes. the mall, however, is impersonal, loud, stuffy, and expensive. i hate going there. it makes me feel like i need to scream. so i guess i understand about not liking to shop. there is a lot of shopping that i do not like either.
oh like trying to find a new pair of shoes for my daughters....ahhhh!
that can be very exasperating.

i am glad the 20 year old can shop for her own shoes now. the 11 year old however, we just shopped her her tenna shoes...oh man!
well, i won't go into it here.

megs @ whadusay said...

Do not compare yourself to those taking those classes with you. You are there for a reason. Don't sell yourself short - or the dream God has given you.

Mommy Cracked said...

Hang in there, Llama Momma! Just think of it as what it is...an opportunity to learn from others. The stuff they publish is probably boring anyway.

The good Lord got you to that conference for a reason. If He didn't want you to be there, you'd be at home doing dishes and diapers.

Marmot Mom said...

I'm not really sure if you can do it, but, I know He can :)

Llama Momma said...

Nancy -- I can totally appreciate shopping at the *right* store!! I love the places where I can walk in and find exactly what we need. And, actually, I just found out that there are several places nearby that I'd live to check out, including a local artists co-op.

Megs -- thank you for your kind words. You're so right. It's not about comparing, it's about growing and learning.

Mommy Cracked -- Good point! ;-)

Marmot Mom -- True. Very, very true.