Wednesday, May 9, 2007

humbling

I have a confession to make. It's really hard for me to ask for help. Now, I know I'm in good company when I say this, but it's true. A week after my gall bladder surgery, I was at the grocery store and the clerk asked, "Can I help you to the car?" No, of course not. I just had abdominal surgery and feel like I'm going to fall over, but I'm good! As I lugged the too-heavy groceries to my mini-van, I could have kicked myself. Why is my first response to "Can I help you?" always "No"?

My husband is on the road for the fourth week in a row, and I'm tired. I expect today to be jam-packed and intense. So, when my sister-in-law called yesterday and offered to stay with baby b. for a few hours while the noisy boys are in preschool, I said yes. (Notice I still didn't ask for help, but at least I accepted it when it was offered!)

It's humbling, though, to be in a position of needing help. And today, I need help. Pray for me, if I come to your mind, as the Holy Spirit leads.

13 comments:

A Musing Mom said...

We're dad-less for dinner tonight. Any chance you all want to join us?

Llama Momma said...

AMM - thanks so much for the invitation! We're booked for dinner, though. :-)

Craver Vii said...

Praying. Gotch!

Llama Momma said...

Craver - thank you. I needed that reminder.

MamaToo said...

this has been on my mind recently, especially after reading John 13:5-8... I had always noticed the sweet grace of Jesus, who washed his disciples' feet. This time I was startled to notice how the disciples stayed seated and let Him serve - all except Peper, who was rebuked soundly! It takes humility, not martyrdom, to accept service of others, and it is part of being with Christ (v.8)
Kudos to you for recognizing and sharing the struggle.

Ted Gossard said...

Amen sister. Am lifting you up in prayer....

It was harder for me to accept help when I was younger than now. But I myself have been a slow learner in this. I realize this is an important part of the way God works, and I want to be in all of that as I'm sure you do, as well. Sometimes does seem a bother though, when I can do it myself! :)

Llama Momma said...

mamatoo - I love that example. And as a person who truly enjoys serving others, I need to remember to let them serve me too.

Ted - thank you for your prayers. I'm afraid that I'm a slow learner too, so God gives me lots of opportunities to *need* the help of others. :-)

Today went really well. God really does answer prayer, people. Seriously. Stop reading this blog and pray for someone! :-)

clc said...

praying for you.

grant is going to go out of town soon too. we'll have to do a single mom dinner again.

spaghettipie said...

Am definitely praying for you. I'm right there with you in having a difficult time asking for help (that would prove I'm not really superwoman...), but I've learned that not only is it a blessing to me, but to the other person who desire to serve.

Llama Momma said...

clc & SP - thank you for your prayers!

Oh, and I am SO NOT Superwoman. I'm really glad to give up that title for something more do-able. "Everyone alive at the end of the day" pretty much sums up my current goal as a parent. ;-)

Craver Vii said...

I hope you're feeling better now, 'cause you've been tagged!

23 degrees said...

with you.

Llama Momma said...

23 - thank you, friend.

Craver - I'll get to that tag...be patient with me! :-)